drunk text

Fifth of November, when I walked you home

That's when I nearly said it, but then said, "Forget it," and froze

Do you remember? You probably don't

'Cause the sparks in the sky took a hold of your eyes while we spoke

Yesterday, drank way too much and stayed up too late

Started to write what I wanna say

Deleted the message

But I still remember it said

I wish I was who you drunk-texted at midnight

Wish I was the reason you stay up 'til three, and you can't fall asleep

Waiting for me to reply

I wish I was more than just someone you walk by

Wish I wasn't scared to be honest and open, instead of just hoping

You'd feel what I'm feeling inside

April the seventh, and nothing has changed

It's hard to get by when you're still on my mind every day (every day)

Sometimes I question if you feel the same

Do we make stupid jokes? Tryna hide that we're both too afraid to say

I wish I was who you drunk-texted at midnight

Wish I was the reason you stay up 'til three, and you can't fall asleep

Waiting for me to reply

I wish I was more than just someone you walk by

Wish I wasn't scared to be honest and open, instead of just hoping

You'd feel what I'm feeling inside

Oh, and here we go again, destroying myself to keep a friend

Hiding away 'cause I was afraid you'd say no

I wonder if I cross your mind half as much as you do mine

If I tell you the truth, what will I lose? I don't know

I wish I sent you that drunk text at midnight

I was just scared it would ruin our friendship, but I really meant it

I wonder how you would reply